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Hello! I guess I'm just stupid. Sent a message thinking that she wouldn't replied and ended up she did. But when she replied, I don't dare to read the message because I know the content would not be something I want to see. Hence I choose not to read it. Hahaha! Living in a self denial world now. Somehow I just know what the reply would be. I guess I no need to read it I would know the reply too.

Hmm... Recently there are a lot of changes that happens in me and everyone finds it strange too. So maybe I should explain? LOL! WHY SHOULD I? hahahah!

Ok! Let's start with the first one. "Why nowadays you are so happy in the mood?" Well... People close to me (you know who yourself is) might know the reason behind every changes in me. So for those who don't know here is the time.

Why am I so happy? Because I'm trying to cover up every unhappy past thoughts with my laughter. I might be laughing out loud but deep down in my heart is bleeding like running water from the tap. So people please understand if you happens to find me behaving like an idiot.

Why the sudden taking up reading?

Hmm... Alright, to be honest. At first reading wasn't something I would like and I even hate to step into library unless I'm going there to study. So what happened? Haha! Not sure. Maybe it was because in the past she reads a lot and I started to take up reading because of her I guess. That's what my heart is telling me. But now reading is like a drug to me, I can't live without a book and it prevent me from thinking a lot too.

Why the suddenly intake of cheese and oyster?

hahahah! Well... This question is obvious I guess. Haha!

OKOK! Enough of the why. Haha!

Anyway, there are much more changes from what all the people told me but well, this a just some forms of action that are trying to hide the past of me.

Anyway, only in front of my cousins I can really behaves how I want and only they will accept who I am and protect me from all sort of harms.

Can't really get into a relationship now because somehow I'm still holding on to the past. Sorry Pei San and sorry for being harsh to you because I really didn't want you to wait for me. It's not fair to you if I'm only going into a relationship with you because of getting over her. Sorry! Hope you understand. We are still friends but no more than friends. :)

Alright! Gotta go! Reading time!!!!!