THOUGHTS

Given my illness now, will it worsen?

Yes? No?

If it worsen, how long more can I live?

1 Year? 10 Years?

Someone ask, who are the people I wanna protect?

My Family, My Friends and You. You are the one that I will protect with the whole of my life.

Got rejected by 3 polys I appealled. What should I do?

Go to poly next year? or to NS first?

Why do humans being think so much?

Uncontrollable thinking? Troubled? Or what?

Are there something to stop one from thinking?

Yes? No?

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Thoughts and doubts just pops out while I trying to get to sleep last night. Think of alot of things. Tonight I will try to make myself tired. Nono! Not tired but damn super tired, before I hit the sack.

Chatted with Ridwan this morning. He always have the ability to sway my mind when I have already calm my mind down. What should I do? Should I? Or Should I Not?

Well, injured my elbow this morning while trying to get something. It's getting more and more painful. Guess going to the Die Ta wont be in any help ba? Not sure.

Got rejected by all 3 polys I appealled but I'm not at all dejected. Why? Not sure!

Trying to get out of the house but it seems that I have no where to go. Why? Didnt I have lots of place to go? ECP? Nearby Park? Window Shopping? Why? Why?

Why out of sudden I'm feeling like so stressed? Why? Should I find someone to talk to? But who should I approach? The people I can approach are no longer like before. Who are willing to lend their listen ear to me? Someone that can give me good advices. Who? Are there One? Cant think of one. Out of sudden I feeling this way.... Can Someone Tell Me What Should I do?