Moodless For No Reason.

Just done with my dinner and watching tv. Had a large bowl of rice and a large pudding for dessert. Dont know why, I can eat so much but I have no mood for anything. Why is that so? I'm not sure too. Today I behave just not the way I am, so strange today.

As usual I'm late for school! Then reached school, usually I will go around and disturb and ka jiao Jian Yong but today I rarely go there. As in seldom and just dazing in class and looking at the computer. Then after that have lunch, I dont drink coke but today I bought coke. In CMO theory I will play and joke around together with Jian Yong, Hua Jian and Darren. But today Hua Jian and Darren didnt come. Then by right I will play with him and talk about stupid things but I just listen to the class. This happened rarely that I listen to class and the thing is today I still ask teacher question. This is a 0.001% that I will ask questions. After that I meet Jun Chong in JP to buy things. When I reached he still not there yet. So I wait about 45 minutes ba and I didnt call him to rush him today instead I just sms him what's keep him so long. After he reply I didnt bother about it already. Then after that I went to purchase my things and I should have called and rush him but I didnt and I just shop on my own in JP for the whole of 45 minutes. I dont go to Supermarket my own but today I just went in and shop as if there is someone by my side. When Jun Chong come and look for me, I should have said " Wa... What are you doing and taking so long. I have been waiting for you for 45 minutes liao lehz!" but instead I just said "so early arr?" I didnt bother much. I'm so not myself today.

Reached home, I just go and bathed and after eating something and went to take a nap until 8.30pm then slack and laid on bed till 8.45pm then get up. I seldom do this but today I did it. Wasnt thinking about it and just telling that I wanna continue to sleep and I dont wanna wake up. But still I woke up for dinner.

Didnt have the mood to play games and work. Tomorrow need to hand in project liao but I didnt even do a thing. None of my friends have the coding but one have the coding but he dont wanna give me when I asked him so forget it then. In my mind I was thinking "then you better not ask my for something in future and I will give you that fucking face too" Dont know why that I am just pissed off by him. *sorry if that words is too vulgar for you but that is what I'm thinking at that time*. Everything happened today just seems like going against me although they did nothing wrong. Dont know why.

Then I was Darren nick in msn . That's true but what Shun He said also true, you wont marry someone that you love because you are thinking that you cant give her the best of she need. So who is more accurate? Not sure!

Why is that everyone have such a believe in me that I can pass when I dont even think that I can pass my stupid english. If I fail, I really think that I disappoint them. If my parents can be like them, how would it be nice. Telling me that I can do it instead of if I fail then dont think of studying and go into NS after ITE. But I will continue to pursue for my studies of course because my aim is a cert of degree.

How does it feel about missing someone? I dont know! But all I know that this few days I just want her to be with me although I know that it is impossible. That's why I give up the thought long ago. This cant be help anyway.

Never mind about anything anymore. Today is just not me. Perhaps this will go one until Friday ba. If it's a bad news I think it will be worse than today ba. I dont know, this is how worse a mood can go. Nothing more! Got to go. End here for today.