Feel like dying... I'm suffering in both mentally and physically. When can I then end this suffering? Or get totally heal from it? My chest, relapse again and thought that it will be alright after a few days but it does not. It continue since last week, I am really getting sick and tired of it. Consulted the doctor and he said that there is nothing wrong. But why is it that this pain is going on and on and on? It always happened at night when I'm sleeping. When can I then really fall into a good night sleep with no disturbance from this nuisances pain? When can I sleep from night till dawn and have that energy to go to school for lessons? Getting so restless in these few days in school that I dont even have the mood to play. Got tired so easily. Dont think that I will be going out this weekend and gotta replenish my energy that had loss this few days. Because of that pain disturbances that make me dont even feel like sleeping at night. Same thing happened yesterday night that I cant sleep again. Anybody have anything that can cure this stupid nonsense going around me? Haix... Tonight going to be the same...
One issue has yet to settle and the other problem pops out. Haix... Is it because of not enough sleep that I keep on thinking about this and that? For nothing that I just laid in the bed and close my eyes just to get some sleeps, thoughts and memories keep popping out like tap water. Memories... Sad memories and thought especially make me ponder and think again and again. I really hope that this will stop.
How I hope that everything stops and I have a moments of my owns. How I hope that there will be someone end every suffering in me. Is that someone that can end my life? So that I can stop all this rubbish from ruling over me. Haix... May not be going out this few days or if worsen, this coming few weeks. Haix... Hope it will stop... Guys, please pardon me!
Nothing more. Trying to get some sleeps but it doesnt helps. Is there someone or something that can pull me up from where I have fallen into? =(
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