Sec Sch Reopen!

After 3 days, I had recovered and started to eat rubbish again but my appetite had grown smaller, need to adjust that it again.

It's others first day of school today, everyone seems so busy and I am so free doing nothing at home. Tried to look for something to work on but cant find anything. Wanna go out but nowhere to go. Wanna find someone to chat there is no one available. Instead, I stayed at home and play games. Trying to keep myself occupied but nothing can keep me occupied long, after playing the game for long time I will feel bored and stop playing. How I wish that today is also but starts of school. Although there is alot of test that I need to revise for and study for, at least it keeps me occupied and not thinking of anything.

Started to think whether or not should I go for it. Should I or Should I Not? Thinking and hesitating. Alot of things happened in the past surface my thoughts of it. I may not be good so I dont wanna do that. I asked myself, why do I always retreat when I drop into it? I really cant find the answer but 2 things about in my mind was, yes and no. If were to be together, I may not be a good one. If not, may be embarrassed if saw each other. Dont know why. That's why really wanna be single. Haha! Monk! Yes! Monk! Potential Monk! Haha!

Had a mild food poisoning. Rashes at the back and it itch. This is the second time, got it once before. Sian. Need to refrain from eating food that are "POISONOUS". Alright then. Nothing more to write for today. Suddenly it rain so heavily, it is a good weather to have a good sleep. Haha! Got to go then. See ya!